Two words describe the over-due release of "Tiptoes of Expectations": must read. You will read the riveting accounts of my life story and the many struggles that I had overcome to obtain the successes I desired. This true story is a written guide that will allow readers an opportunity to understand as well evaluate life's struggles and solutions to conquer them. "Never-Say-Die" efforts are powerful words that made me one of the best Division I wrestlers in the nation. To that end, those same words were able to lift my spirits during the cruel and heartbreaking times of my life, which allowed me to grow in myriad ways. This page-turning memoir will leave readers stunned while learning that the true struggle lies within the mind and soul. Coming Soon. 

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  It was a very gloomy day sometime near the end of football season in 1982 when my life was about to leap into a world of exceptional and unexpected talent in a sport I knew very little about. That sport was wrestling.  I was fifteen and there was a lot to learn.  I credit that sport for changing my entire outlook on life.  A life filled with the thrill of victory and the agony of defeat.
     I walked down a dark hallway at Steelton-Highspire high school with butterflies gathering in my stomach just as they would before most of my matches during my career.  I approached the junior varsity basketball coach about his decision whether or not I would be a member of the 1982-83 Steel-High basketball team.  As I walked the hall toward the lower-level locker room, coach Yetter had already journeyed toward the gymnasium to help begin the last day of basketball tryouts.
     Three years prior I was denied the opportunity to play the sport I loved because the ax fell on me.  Steel-High was known throughout the state of Pennsylvania for its competitive basketball teams and it was "the sport to play" if you were a student there.  In fact, basketball and wrestling were the only two sports to compete in during the winter sports at Steel-High for boys.
     The Steamrollers had a very powerful and well-know football team as well.  When I attended school there we had a little over six hundred students from grades 7th through 12th.  The 1972 flood wiped out the greater part of the population especially since the west side of the town failed to exist, even today.
     Although Steel-High was a very small school, the Rollers competed in Quad A sports competitions with schools that were much more populated than us.  Steel-High had its share of championships too.  In the late 1970's and early 1980's, their football teams were rated number one in the state of Pennsylvania (Saylor ratings).  Once in 1978, in which I shared the glory as team manager.  And secondly, in 1982 when Steel-High shared the title with rival Cumberland Valley high school and another school located in western Pennsylvania.
     Nevertheless, in my fourth attempt to make the basketball team during my sophomore year of high school, I wasted no time waiting for the cut.  I went directly to coach Yetter at the beginning of the final day of tryouts and asked if he was going to cut me again.  He looked at me for a moment.

   "Wait until after practice."  He said.

     I could see in his eyes that I wasn't going to make the team.  Instead of going to the last tryout, I gathered my things and quit the team- 0thus not allowing coach Yetter the opportunity to officially cut me for the fourth consecutive season.
     Although I didn't make the basketball team, I went from the bright lights and big crowds of Steel-High basketball to the hushed tones of Steel-High wrestling.  The following day I was on the wrestling mat preparing for the up coming season.  I knew very little about post-season tournaments, therefore, I had no goals whatsoever for wrestling.
     Steel-High wrestlers practiced in the gym at the same time the basketball players practiced.  We didn't have a wrestling room.  Initially, it was hard for me to accept the fact that I didn't make the basketball team, especially since the fellows on the team made fun of me.  However, it gradually went away.
     My first varsity match was at Carlisle high school against Mike Wagner.  After grappling the six-minute match with him I was out-scored, 5-3.  Also, after the match, I learned that wrestling was probably the toughest sport a man could compete in.  Never-say-die effort wins for you on the wrestling mat.  Did I ever die!  I was never so tired in my life.  I couldn't even spit.  My mouth was dryer than a desert.  Furthermore, my body ached from head to toe.  I'll never know what morning sickness feels like, but after excepting the physicality of the sport and nursing my bumps and bruises, a chronic nauseous feeling bombarded my body.  I was sick as a dog, thinking I would soon die.
     The following Saturday I caught glimpses of victory on the mat.  Each year while wrestling at Steel-High, we'd wrestle a tri-match with York high school and Scotland School for Veterans Children.  I captured two victories that day, clamping my first opponent with a quick fall then coasted to my second victory with a 12-4 decision.  I was very excited after the meet, although I was unsure about being a wrestler.  I couldn't wait to tell mom when I got home.  She was always happy to see her children achieve.
     The following weeks of wrestling I over-powered nine consecutive opponents, compiling a 10-1 record.  I captured the Capital City Christmas tournament at Harrisburg high school as well, defeating Brian Starner from Bermudian Springs high school, 5-1.  It was my first tournament championship during my career.  I started to develop a great degree of confidence characteristically as well as athletically.  I was happy to be a wrestler, especially since I was winning.  I don't believe I would have continued with the sport if I had a loosing record.
     As a youngster in the world of sports and prior to becoming a wrestler, I experienced a great deal of rejection during my beginning stages of competition.  When I entered the competitive sports world at eight years of age I received the opportunity to play football, baseball and basketball as a starter.
     In peewee football my team was declared co-champs at the end of the season.  What a feeling as a youngster.  I was winning and loved it.  After that season as an all around jock, my mom declared me ineligible.  She thought highly of her children obtaining the proper education, and I had a hell of a time in the classroom.  I had to sit out of sports the next few seasons despite my constant begging and bugging I did to mom.  Eventually, I accepted the condition.
     When I entered the eight grade at Steel-High, my mom allowed me to play sports again.  I went back out for football, in which I was still able to compete in the midget program.  By that time I had lost so much physical ability in the sport.  Also, I stopped growing, except in my heart.  Ironically, however, the Steelton Raiders captured another league championship even though we lost to Red Land in the Super Bowl.
     I enjoyed the overall accomplishment but knowing that my contributions to that championship weren't effective, it wasn't all that great.  I sat the bench most of the season and only got in for one play during that game against Red Land.  Reluctantly or so the fate continued.  I could never make a basketball team at Steel-High, and in teenage baseball I sat the bench.  I hated rejection and I didn't understand it, even though I had the biggest heart in the world.  Yet, I was still determined to be a successful athlete someday.
     It's understandable why I was grateful during my ten match-winning streak during the 1982 wrestling season.  Wrestling was a molding phenomenon, which provided a means of teaching, developing, training, encouragement and confidence for my character.  I began to develop a positive image for myself.  In fact, I started developing a love relationship for the sport.
     The next match we had was against wrestling powerhouse, Cedar Cliff high school, located across the Susquehanna River on the west shore.  I had to wrestle Dave Orris.  He was undefeated and I read about him a lot in the paper as being a very tough and outstanding wrestler.
     He came after me right away, building a 9-1 lead toward the end of the match.  Cedar Cliff's coach Bob Craig instructed him to give me a one-point escape in order for him to work for a superior decision, which gave a team five team points back then.
     Craig's wit as a wrestling coach backfired though.  I don't recall what happened but I remember Orris struggling to get of his back.  He recovered at the sound of the buzzer.  Actually, I thought he was pinned.  The scored ended at 9-7 with my five-point move.
     Wrestling was my sport.  Nobody could tell me I wasn't good.  Not any of the coaches who sat me on the bench.  Not any of my friends or enemies.  And most of all, not coach Yetter, the junior varsity basketball coach nor coaches Shonewolf and Baronoski, who coached the junior high basketball programs at Steel-High.  I was on a mission and anybody who got in my way was going to suffer severely.  Thanks to that match with Orris, my life was changed forever.  It was strange too, because I never wrestled any other opponent during my career than I had wrestled Orris.  I only had the pleasure of beating him twice.
      That season changed my life in other aspects as well.  I almost killed one of my best friends, and my mother was dying.  She was diagnosed with cancer.
      At the end of the season I lost to Kevin King from Milton Hershey high school for the third place consolation match, 10-2.  I was unable to advance to the District Championship.  Our Sectional Tournament advanced three wrestlers per weight class.  My final record that season stood at 18-6.  Not bad for a first year varsity wrestler.
     Although my season was over, my wrestling coach, Nick Govelovich allowed me to go to the District III wrestling championships as a manager for the Steel-High team.  Although I was jealous of the 98-pounders who did advance, going to that tournament psyched me up.  It made me want to come back and win it the next year.